i'm cursed. i am eternally self-conscious. i even wonder what i look like when i'm sleeping. will there ever be that moment when i let my guard down?
so i had carefully positioned myself on a lawn on campus to read. the grass was wet, but i didn't care. the sun was shining and it felt good, lying there.
all of a sudden this boy catches my eye. he is sitting and reading as well. and he is beautiful. i am possessed by the sudden urge, this overwhelming desire, to know him. who are you? i wonder. who is this dunkin donuts iced coffee drinking, brown haired boy? i need to know.
i pretend to read, but i watch him.
i spend whole minutes convincing myself... go up to him and say something. anything.
but i don't.
and he walks away.
i've been driving fifty-five, feels like my whole life