this summer, i dressed up as a giant slice of pizza.

i spent many long hours complaining that i hate boys. (i don't really.)

i was inexplicably tired for most of the time.

i drank lots and lots and lots of light beer.

and ate lots of mcdonalds and pizza.

and consequently gained weight,

despite the fact that i actually did maintain a somewhat normal gym schedule for the first time in my life.

it took me all summer to realize that i belonged. and then, it was time to go.

and i don't belong anymore.

now, i am waiting.

waiting for the rest of my life to begin.

waiting for my fellowship papers to arrive. i got a research assistantship, but the letter isn't coming in the mail! grrr.

i am also now secretly in love with someone. but i'm not saying who, because i don't want to make it real.

oh.

i looked at the boy's profile the other day, out of nostalgia and curiosity. and he had 2 of my favorite summer songs on there.

and it still hurt me a lot, thinking about him.

so... not much has changed.

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