in college, you know that your party is a success when you look around your own apartment and only half the people in the room were actually invited.

last night was fairly strange, compounded by the fact that it was an 80s party but since only the people that were invited knew about it, only half of the population was in 80s costume. (i found this amazing t-shirt... i was so proud.)

it was a weird mix of people. i did get to talk to T but i really don't think he's interested like that. my friend mike said he's quasi-seeing someone, actually. i don't *get* all these people and their revolving door relationships. i invited a friend who easily became the talk of the party for hooking up with her ex-boyfriend's roommate in our bathroom (eww). and, not that i want to be the girl who does that kind of thing, but maybe i do, just once. well i mean, i guess i was once... but i guess i'm just trying to understand why guys don't like me. i mean, not in the pity party sense at all. i know that some guys like me, or will like me, but i just don't attract them like flies and i wonder what that intangible quality some people have is. because i sure as hell don't have it. i also think its really strange that most of my friends are single females ages 21-22 and none of us has any romantic interest to speak of. what are we doing wrong?

anyway. it's really grey out today and i wish it wasn't.

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