i am in a ridiculously happy mood today. for one, it is beautiful outside.

for two, i don't really know.

oh! i found out my roommates and i for next year got an apartment! this is an amazing and lucky occurrence, the building is brand new and fully furnished! i am so very psyched.

i don't really know why but lately i have been feeling like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders, and i feel free.

i feel like i am on the verge of something great.

this morning i was thinking about my night with A., and the part i liked best is that while we were laying in my bed, with his arms around me, he would ocassionally hug me really tight. and i was thinking of back when i hooked up with the boy, and he made me leave the room afterwards, and how he doesn't like to sleep with anyone in the same bed. it was just nice to be treated like that by A., even if it was all just a ploy to get some ass, even if i never see him again.

those hugs mattered. the things he told me mattered. the way he kissed me in the morning mattered.

not all guys are jerks. not all guys are the boy.

things are already getting better.

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